your daddy's son....

It's really like having a child. I would like nothing else than to go to a bar after I get off work and have a nice drink to relax, but I have to go home and "rescue" my dog who is probably sleeping in the bathroom, but has been alone the entire time I have been at work tonight. Would he be okay if I took a detour on the way home and met a friend for a drink? Yes! Would I have fun and not worry about him constantly? Nope. For all intents and purposes, he is my child, my little boy who I love so incredibly much more than I probably should. From the day I picked him up I have pretty much given my little heart to my dog. Well let's be honest, my husband has my heart, but that little puppy has a pretty good chunk of it too.

Back to my point, the ability to have spontaneity in my life has significantly decreased. Now, I have a living thing to worry about and be responsible for. D can take care of himself so I don't have to do that for him, but for the first time I am responsible for something that lives and breathes. It's a lot of pressure. Take for instance today. It's Saturday, I can finally sleep for as long as I want too. 8:47am, Beau needs to potty so up we go. Luckily when he was finished he agreed to come back to bed and we slept until about 1030am today. As soon as we get up I head upstairs to fix his breakfast so that he can take his medicine. I sit on the couch and decide to finish my Christmas cards, check my email and watch some TV. Can I really do this? Sure, as long as I am able to keep my lap clear, cause that's the only place Beau likes to really sit if I'm on the couch. I decide to watch a movie, but midway through I have to pause it so that I can harness Beau up and take him on a walk for the day. Back from the walk it's time to give him a little lunch and prepare for work. And on it goes...my point is that everything I do now is affected by my dog.

Sometimes I get frustrated and wish I had never pushed so hard to get a puppy. But then two seconds pass and he looks up at me with those puppy eyes and I know for a fact that I wouldn't give him up for anything in the world. And besides, I have vodka, wine, and beer at home....who says I can't have a post drink work tonight? =)