so before I start ranting about the few small things that are not quite how I want them to be in my life let me begin by saying...i'm happy....i really am....there are just a few things I wish were working out a little differently for my life....and maybe now that I am seeing them....I can work to fix them.....
job....still at suffolk....enough said.....still waiting to hear about NSMT.....only been a week so I am still hopeful....
derek.....things are wonderful....i love him more everyday and everyday I am more convinced that marrying him is the right thing to do.....despite our issues of finding a location for said wedding....that being said.....i really miss him....he is working soo much now that Marty has left.....he hasn't had a full day off in forever.....he constantly works to keep things going in the Education Department.....and I sit at home watching movies and eating on the couch.....that's another reason why I am semi-hopeful about this job at NSMT...even though I would not be working directly with him.....i would have the chance to see him occasionally if I really wanted too.....and that would help....
friends.....lord knows I have them......and they are all amazing......but it seems that the ones I truly care about and enjoy spending time with......are all miles away.....i spent the early part of my life making friends across the U.S. and now when I have chosen to settle down.....my friends are scattered across states and no where near me......it makes being alone when Derek is working even harder because I really don't have anyone here in Boston that I can just pick up the phone and talk to, or go visit, or grab a drink with, etc.....Is it my fault.....I'm sure.....I haven't taken the time to make friends or put myself out there and make friends.....it's easier to sit at home with take out chinese food and watch Big Business for the millionth time...*grin*......okay so I know it's an issue......and I'm the one that has to fix it....i'm working on it.....
so now with all that being said......again.....let's talk about more exciting happy things.....
I did get to see my friend Jamie the other day! He stopped through Boston at South Station and I was able to see him, give him a big hug, chat, meet his best friend Kevin, and spend a few minutes with him before they had to leave out again for Portland, ME. I have to say that Jamie is probably one of the coolest people I have met in a really long time. He's shy as all hell, but when I really need to talk about something, no matter how strange or bizarre it may be.....he let's me ramble and then gives me advice and makes me feel better by the time it is all said and done. Within the next month Jamie is supposed to move to NYC.......sigh.....that makes me happy......finally maybe we will be able to hang out in person more!
I talked to my Mom for a few minutes the other day....it's always amazing to hear her voice.....I miss my mother so much......she is quite possibly the one person who has always been there for me.....even when I didn't deserve it......living so far away from her is so hard sometimes.....i am so excited for her to come up here for her birthday and for my wedding......she can finally see the place that Derek and I have put together and spend more time with him......she sent him a Valentine's Day card this year along with mine and wrote in there "Thank you for making my son so happy".......don't you love her......
so as you see....life is good.....i'm happy....and things are going well.......i just need to ramble about the same things over and over.......
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