random smiles.....

i'm walking in the common yesterday and of course the snow is piled everywhere..........when i get toward the middle where the big hill is there is a group of about 3 parents with at least 6 small children sledding down the hill and laughing......i couldn't help but smile.....i like things like that.....random smiles are great.......

i got my new palm handheld yesterday.....can i tell you how much fun this is to me??......it's color and i can download documents i am working on to it......and it lets me color coordinate my schedule and keep track of addresses and phone numbers........god i'm such a dork.....

too much time apart....

isn't the time period when you are engaged supposed to be one of the happiest times of your life??.......yet here I sit.....with my boyfriend stuck in Indiana while I am here locked in the apartment due to the blizzard.....and if that is not bad enough....i find out tonight that between his work and my class.......i will see him only one night a week......and then he will have to work most Saturdays he said......sigh......i'm not really blaming him......for the most part it is totally out of his control.........but I can't help but be really sad about it all.....i'm 26 years old and engaged.....i should spending tons of time with him and we should be planning our future and making memories.....yet for the next two months, i'll be reading for class and writing papers, he will be rehearsing and teaching weekend classes.....and hardly ever the twain shall meet......so what am I doing about it??.......saying nothing of course...ranting about it here.....and having another Jack and Coke for spite.......i know i should really talk to him about it, but it makes him very sad and upset too.....and I feel like if I let him know just how much it bothers me that it will only make him more sad and make the situation worse for us both........so what's a boy to do?.........

when did life get so complicated?.......i remember just a few years ago when the only thing i really had to worry about was if I was going to get cast in the next show and if I would get a C in my History class so that I wouldn't have to retake it.....and then all of a sudden....here I am........

a sip of coffee....a moment to breathe......

the last few days have been kind of a whirlwind.....complicated by the fact that it feels like 12 below zero right now........no joke.......but I digress......yesterday was the beginning of classes where I work so every student and professor was yelling my name yesterday needing this and that to where I just wanted to crawl under my desk and hide......but at least the day passed quickly....then I had to start my grad school classes at BU last night......starting with Legal Issues....sigh.....that's gonna be a hella class.....today again things are crazy at work but for a moment I sit here, take a sip of coffee, and take a moment to breathe.....

my boy is sick right now.....makes me kinda sad......but it's great to have him home again and as a whole, life is very good right now.....

i like soup......

what goes well with "The West Wing".....ah yes.....a nice Merlot....

well surely you didn't think i was going to say Chardonney....

Derek left for Atlanta on Friday so I have the weekend to myself....while the prospect of having time to myself seemed like a grand idea, the execution is not quite what i had in mind.....i have come to the realization that I really don't like being by myself for longer than a day.....i get bored really easily.....and i don't like being alone....i like having people around in my life....even if we aren't doing something together...i would rather have someone in the apt with me to talk to if we so choose....or to share a funny story with if one comes along.........

but alas.....tonight....it's just me.....so i will go back to folding laundry, watching season 3 of the West Wing....and finishing off a bottle of Merlot.....

wasted time, lunch, and guiding someone's future......weird

Legal schmegal.........i tried to go to the bookstore today and get my books for my Legal Issues class......did they have them........no......very anti-climactic......find out later that they don't sell them in the store, we have to buy them in class......sigh......i hope they aren't too expensive....

went to lunch with Jennifer today......we went to the Beantown Pub on Tremont.....not bad....good hamburger.....i'm was glad to hear that she is taking Financial Managment in the Spring....she is at least decided to get her master's certificate if she doesn't go through with the full degree which I think is great......

i've agreed to be a mentor....me....i can barely make decisions about my classes and future for me, much less for some incoming guy/girl in this program this Spring.....but I will do my best to give good advice and help out in any way that I can.....truth be told I am kinda excited to do it and flattered that they asked me to do it since I am still a first year too.....who knows....maybe I will take over the Career Development Committee when Deb leaves too......could be fun.....

planning a wedding.....

eloping isn't such a horrible thing right??.........As we were lying down for bed last night Derek and I started to talk about wedding details and finally started the conversation about where, when, who, etc......and after a good 30 mins or so had come up with absolutely nothing....i just want to get married.....i don't care where.......and i want my Mom and my friends to be there......and I want a few people from each side of our lives to say something.........and I want Briga to sing........other than that.....I have no care about the details.......i need a wedding planner....where's J. Lo?

classes on the horizon....

one week......that's all i have left before i have to start back to BU for grad school......and such a daunting semester too.......by all reports from 2nd year friends, i am looking at the most work heavy semester of the program.......that is not something i want to hear before i begin....although with classes titled Legal Issues in Arts Administration and Managing Performing Arts Organizations, i can't say that i am all that surprised......so life gets back to the norm....work, class, study....that's it......as long as i keep telling myself that it will all be worth it in the end, i'll be okay......

i'm bored.......

stolen pizza......

My fiance ate my last piece of pizza........i'm not his friend today.........

overwhelmed by it all.......AND I MET MY NEIGHBORS!

Last night Derek's doctor (Tim) and his partner Glen threw us a HUGE engagement party at their beautiful home. Now when I say huge, i mean huge.....there was a full spread in the dining room with a huge flower arrangement in the center on a nice burgandy cloth table complete with the most amazing salad, swedish meatballs, tortellini, breads, ham, turkey, cheese, etc.... around various other tables there were appetizers of sushi, cheese and crackers, nuts, homemade salsa and chips, and then there was a fully stocked bar with anything you could want....needless to say this in it self was enough to overwhelm a boy from Alabama who never thought he would get married in the first place.....

Then after everyone had eaten, Dr. Reese passed out champagne to everyone and Derek's brother Gabe gave a surprise toast about our engagement. I and many other people in the room got a little teary about it all. After the toast we were led to the room that had been off limits adjacent to the dining room and inside was a cake (DELICIOUS) for us complete with bourban whipping cream to top and a groom groom kinda thing happening that was really creative and funny.....

Everyone kept coming up to us and telling us how incredibly happy they were for us and that they could be a part of such a big thing for us and for society as a whole with us....was quite overwhelming and one of my favorite nights that I've ever had......

And as if that is not enough, many who know us, know of the saga of the people who live next door to us on the second floor. Derek and I have been convinced since we moved in that they were gay, but we had yet to meet them to completely confirm that assumption. So we are at our party last night (Tim and Glen had invited people they knew too) and we start talking to these guys who ask us about how we met, where we live, etc....and we answer Wakefield. They said, oh cool, we live in Wakefield too, where in Wakefield? We respond wiuth our street......to which he replies, OH MY GOD....we are 29....I said...we're 31!!! The mystery solved in an instant! By a twist of fate our neighbors who we have spied on for months are at our engagement party! We had a great time getting to know them and honestly I didn't want the night to end.....

I can't thank Tim and Glen enough for last night......was something unlike anything I've ever had.......

Searching for the perfect shoe....

After a wonderfully relaxing and beneficial trip to my chiropractor I decided to walk over to Filene's in hopes of finding a new pair of brown dress shoes to wear to the engagement party Saturday. (Derek's doctor, a friend of ours, is throwing us a very big and extravagant party at his home Saturday night to celebrate...should be good times) I searched and searched until finally I found them....shiny, brown, and more than I wanted to pay.....but did I do it anyway?....of course I did....gotta look great if you are the party's focus right? So much pressure...

I'm going with Deb to have dinner and then on to the Huntington to see The Rivals tonight. It's been since undergrad since I have seen or read that show, but it should be good times, especially if the Huntington is producing it. It will also be cool to catch up and hang out with Deb. I'm sad she and I will not have class together this spring, having her and Katie around made things more entertaining......

I'm struggling to understand why I'm sitting at work, not really doing anything. I have been back at work for a solid week and everything I needed to do could have been accomplished in 2 maybe 3 days max. Yet, here I have sat for 8 hours this week with nothing really to do. Granted, I'm getting paid for it and I should probably stop complaining, but when I think about those West Wing and Golden Girls episodes that are waiting for me at my apartment, I start to feel a sense of longing...

Walking in the snow......

There is something really cool about walking to work in the snow. I mean granted, it's cold and wet and kinda irritating to an extent, but then you walk by the Boston Common and suddenly the snow is magical and looks like nothing you remember. You can't help but stop and stare for a little while and smile!

Now having said that.....It's fucking cold in New England and I miss Alabama weather......

I think I am slightly OCD when it comes to certain aspects of my life. Mainly I think it applies to the tracking of packages from UPS and Fed Ex. I was fortunate enough to get some money from my Dad and stepmother and I decided to buy myself an Ipod for Christmas. Well I have been checking the tracking system like 10-15 times a day and watching its progress from Shanghai, China to Anchorage, AK to Indianapolis, IN to Boston, MA and finally it is on the trip being delivered to my work today. How excited am I? I feel that it should arrive with stickers on it from all the places it has visited. I like that my Ipod has traveled, gives it a little character...

At the request of others......

At the request of my dear friend Jamie, I have decided to at least attempt to make regular periodic updates on my life with maybe some deep thoughts, political statements, or any other musings that may inspire me to type....

So where am I now? Well I am recently engaged!! Whoo hooo.....god how wierd is that? me...engaged....whoda thunk?.....Derek is a wonderful man who makes me extremely happy and I said yes without a second thought....of course I'm scared as hell about the future (for gay marriage is new and gay relationships are sadly unstable more often than not), but we are extremely happy and I feel we can weather any storm that may come near us!

So I'm living up here in Boston, Massachusetts, (well, Wakefield) planted here from Alabama by route of Washington DC for a year or so......and I must say.....I really love it! NYC is a short drive so I get to go and see many new and exciting shows and exhibitions, Ogunquit, ME is a great vacation spot only an hour or so away....and there is so much beauty and culture here in New England.....I couldn't be happier....well okay...if my Mom was here I would be happier, but alas she is happy and content in Alabama so I will deal! =)

Okay, I think that's a good enough start......